I was charged with rape and indescent assault. I gangbanged a girl with 3 other dude when we all had alcohol and the Judge believed that she was substantially intoxicated and could not give the consent. I was convicted and sent into the prison at the age of 20.

It was just the second night in the prison. While I was going to sleep, a group of inmates gathered around me. They said insulting words on me, call me rapist, torn down my trousers and pin me down in force. I struggled and shouted but could not help. Some inmates raped me and some surrounded and watched.

I was so hurt. I asked for doctor next day and he just cured me, without asking me what happened. The prison officials who took me to the doctor also had not asked a word.

In the following few nights, they came again. And about a week or two later, a tough and masculine inmate said to me that I was his "wife" and he had absolute authority over me. He and other inmates called me whore and in feminine pronoun, gave me a girl name, and forced me to act feminine and do the "wife" things. In the first few weeks I struggle and fought back, but they beat me and hurt me. I began to learn the lesson and after a few months I stopped struggle.

I was imprisoned for nearly 7 years. In the said period I mainly served my "husband", but he ocassionaly requested me to serve other inmates, mainly as an trading for some benefit for him. My first husband used me for nearly 4 years and passed to the second one, who passed me to the third one after using me for 2 years.

I am "lucky" not having infected any HIV in the prison. But the thing clearly had a long-lasting effect on me. Now I am already 2 years out of prison, I am still visiting psychiatrist regularly. I am encouraged to voice out but I feel shame to do so. I lose my manhood and feel that I am no longer a man.

I don't know whether the charge sheet can serve as proof. http://i.imgur.com/SLRDJ.png

I have posted this IAMA and for no reason the said post was deleted. I was asked by some to re-post.